Ahhh... Such a beautiful morning. It's considered a "bluebird" day here in Colorado (a new term to me)- not sure if this phrase is used specifically for skiing, or is just a nice descriptor of what the sky looks like right now. Perfectly blue. Not a cloud. The snow on the ground is white, the cats are sleeping on the couch, a good friend is on her way over (perhaps for baking?), incense is burning nearby and Pavarotti is singing to me from the stereo speakers. Ahhh....
Just reading it sounds so nice. I would think I would be perfectly content right now. I wish, I wish, I WISH I could just focus on the present moment. Just FEEL what is happening right now. Instead, my brain is moving ever so quickly. I'm thinking about the book I'm currently reading (There Is No Me Without You), I'm thinking about how I have to rearrange my classroom furniture (due to school shootings across the US, we now have "lockdown drills" where the kids and I literally have to hide in our classroom... the way I have it set up right now, the cops were able to see us through the door- fun, I know), I'm thinking about finances (holy cow... folks told us homestudy costs were higher in Colorado- but we didn't think that meant by at least a grand more than other places- PLUS gas money for the social worker to get to our location), I'm thinking about my lack of spirituality and how bummed that makes me, I'm worried we bit off more than we can chew (in regards to building a house, selling our townhouse and adopting a child all at the same time), AND I'm thinking about how folks are thinking I should be "all better" now that we have decided to adopt so they don't have to pause whenever they want to talk about pregnancy, labor, breastfeeding, blah, blah, blah. Which, by the way, I'm doing pretty good with- but I still get sad sometimes. Phew. How was that for a run-on sentence?
Ahh, Pavarotti, take me away (or rather, Pavarotti's voice, take me away)....
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Pavarotti in the morning....
Posted by Courtney Rose at 9:14 AM
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Just this morning I was thinking about the importance of living in the moment, a term Ted uses often when talking about acting. It applies to so many other things in life as well. Things are in upheaval, a thousand things are nagging at you (and me), but how wonderful to sink into the beauty of Pavarotti, a sky so blue, and a friend to bake with. The only thing that cold make it any better would be if this friend is one to cuss with too, you know, to share your burden :)
A book recommendation: Everything Belongs by Richard Rohr. I read it about six years ago and need to read it again as a reminder of living in the NOW. I think you're on your way to that level of enlightenment, whether you realize it or not.
Courtney, I think you and I could be really good friends :) We seem to think along the same lines...and I love me some opera. One of my favorites is Andrea Bocceli...ahhhh...that puts in me in my happy place :) I too struggle with life issues so often and I often think that it must be so nice to be one of those people that lives life by clichés, because it seems so carefree ...but that is SO not me. I really enjoy reading your blog. You and Lori always seem to post things that I am thinking about too.
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HI,We are using CHI also. Glad I found your blog.Congrats on the acceptance letter.What a sweet hubby you have (necklace).Enjoy Pavarotti, Bocceli is my fav.
Looking forward to following your journey!
Hey Courtney --
Wow! You've moved and I did too! (Click on my old blog to see where I moved.) I can totally relate to the "mind is on overdrive" feeling. That's the whole "jaw-shivering" thing I experience when I start to become anxious while "overthinking" things. Not that you don't have (multiple) valid reasons to feel the way you do. But my trick when my brain starts moving quicker than my body is to just step back, take quite a few deep breaths and think of the good things that are happening at the moment. Or heck, even the humerous parts of various situations I'm in. After all, if you can't laugh about it when you're going through it, you'll never be able to laugh!!
Hope you had a wonderful weekend!!
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